2010 sep 13th "the earliest celebration of birhthday"

 i'm having my birthday's holiday at muar now...

i suggested celebrate with my boy's family..

causes i miss my family badly..

but i can't go back to them..

that's why i'm here..

seriously..

they treat me pretty well...

presents, ang bao, cake and bbq foods..

all they prepared for two days..

very touching my heart..

the family gathering are warmed me..

they're treating my as their family..

i'm so happy with them and all the kids...<3

very appreciated.. especially my babe..

thanks for the HTC HD2...

haha.. love it so much...

besides that.. the day after tomorrow is three years anniversary of him...

even until now his face and voise never left from my mind..

feels like just happened few days ago..

miss him terribly.. are him seeing us all the times..?

can he read my mind..? i want to tell him that i miss him..

never stop.. never... never.....

if there is another choice for me..

i'll still choosing you be my daddy...

happy birthday to me...

and bah.. sorry... and i love u.... -.-

2010 Aug 25th "My Appresal of Bobbi Brown"

 this is a day of my dead day..

why did i say so..?

because my three months confirmation at term..

too bad to inform that i'd been extended three months again..
i'm so sad.. i knew that i am not good enough in everything i've done..
i did so much mistake.. felt myself such a stupid girl...
 i promise..! i would be play more professional..
i would put more effort during duty..
i would bring the best to everyone...
seriously i can't over come it..
feel stressful badly..

 the photo i took before go up office...

and him.. my only loved waited for me at down stair for one and the half hours..
no matter how stress i am..
he'll always my comforter...
his hug is everything i need..
he supporting me all the time..
always by my side when i needed..
he's my pillow for crying.. hugging.. and decompressor..
baobei.. i do love u more than i do.. 
i never mention but i really do..
although is late...  but belated happy monthsary for 520...

2010 Aug 16th "The Girls gethering day"

 since i joined bobbi brown..

i'd three months of times never see my lovely babes..

it's time to gether and gossip up...

awwu~ i always like the season of sharing with my babe kate and eeyee..

 non-stop of chat...

and the three klang's girls... 

brenda, celine and sabrina...

and of cause our hot babe perry..

 we went pavilion..

the place i always chilling last year..
half year of time i left there..
happy to heard that they are glad..
afterward i went mid valley by own..
and have dinner and movie there with my boy...

the movie we choosen.. 
THE LAST AIRBENDER

the child so handsome..
i love it so much..
awaiting the next movie come..
well~
 a beautiful offday..
that's all for today....

2010 AUG 8th "breathless"

 july.. no! 

it's august..

i need more times..

24hours is not enough for me..

my sales was so bad on last month..

caused me cannot sleep well at the night.. 

and i'm very stressful.. it affect my period unusual and stomachache..

these few days.. i kept work over-time for my sales..

i don't even go out for a break or lunch..

i'm afraid cannot hit the target again..

i still not been confirm yet..

i'm not showing how hardworking i am now..

i just put all my effort in what i really love..

and learning from mistake to work better..

although it's tired and not easy..

 i just want to tell i'm not a lazy girl that they're thinking actually..

T.T.. feels crying.. what else could be help..?

somemore my boy gonna left me for two days..

i have to bear up against those lonely nights..

stop here.. got to rest early for another fight..

good night.. and sweet dream to me..

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2010 July 29th "offday"

yeah~ it's my baby sister sweet 10th...

although i am far away from her..

but i still wish her a good birthday..

i bought her a cute watch..

hopefully she will like it..

she's a mature little girl..

and i love her as well..

at the same time..

today is my offday...

i went back to my damansara uptown home last night..

causes miss my elder sister and also pack my staff to subang..

this morning my boy came my place..

we play "zu fan zai"...haha..

at last become a garbage kitchen..

damn mess..

but the food  taste pretty good...

especially my ginseng chicken soup..

after that we off to subang neway sing k...

till now just arrived home...

but my boy heading to masion..

tonight i be a good girl at home..

because tomorrow i wanna but all my effort to heat my target..

only three days left for me to heat the target..

~~~~~"god bless me"~~~~~

is time to cover blanket and the eyelid cover the eye ball..

good night...

2010 July 18th " illness of heart"

after a phone with my sister

 i cried last night..

cried loudly....

had a period times never cry like that..

ya.. i am mature enough shouldn't cry..

luckily my boy were by my side...

but i just cannot control my tears..

the person i expected...

the thing i thought...

the problem i guess..

is just out of that...

i thought everything is perfect..

i thought nothing is wrong..

i thought she will be alright..

but why everything is keep changing..?

why she want to do that..

many questions on my main now..

 i can't figure it out........

i hope she are happy without forcing..

i wish she can be stronger with independence..

i expecting that she can wake-up..

 i don't know what to do...

i really hope one day i could help..

i really hope one day i could soft the problems..

 worried my younger sisters..

they are still younger.. 

..........

dad.. can u read my heart..?

dad.. why....?

.........

( i . i )....

2010 July 12th "Muar trip"

having holiday at Muar..

and chilling at my dear's place..

what a peaceful town here.. 

without target, without working, without stressful...

so relaxing.. the family feels i miss so long.. 

suddenly thinking of my daddy...

where is he now.. are he miss me too..? T.T

 by the way.. i met my boy's family..

seriously very nervous..

i hope that can stay here longer..

but the day after tomorrow got to go back to kl...

and everything back to usual..

 the photo taken when we heading to Muar... <3

my boy still sleeping with no sense jsut next to me... 

feeling good now.. so quiet but with some jazz.. 

alright.. stop here... have a nice day...^^

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