2010 July 18th " illness of heart"

after a phone with my sister

 i cried last night..

cried loudly....

had a period times never cry like that..

ya.. i am mature enough shouldn't cry..

luckily my boy were by my side...

but i just cannot control my tears..

the person i expected...

the thing i thought...

the problem i guess..

is just out of that...

i thought everything is perfect..

i thought nothing is wrong..

i thought she will be alright..

but why everything is keep changing..?

why she want to do that..

many questions on my main now..

 i can't figure it out........

i hope she are happy without forcing..

i wish she can be stronger with independence..

i expecting that she can wake-up..

 i don't know what to do...

i really hope one day i could help..

i really hope one day i could soft the problems..

 worried my younger sisters..

they are still younger.. 

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dad.. can u read my heart..?

dad.. why....?

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