ENOUGH

 i don't run from you,

i walk away slowly..

and it kills me..

because you don't care..

enough to stop me..

i ever mention that love is selfish...

you can't get few loves at the same time..

i'm the girl standing behind..

hoping you to hold me back..

 i won't complain what you done..

and go ahead to do whatever you like..

even needn't you to find me everyday..
but at least you care me.. did you..?

all i wanted just you don't let me lonely...

everything i post on FB all for u..
eventual i realized that you got not only me..

"bb"..? "baby"..?
i started feel disgusting with this appellation..
stop calling me that if you are calling others...
you never cherish my love for you..
cause you can get me whenever you need me..
that's the way you love me..?
or you never..?
 at least do something to hold me back...
i really got only you...

 it's hard to wait around for something that you know might never happen..

but it's even harder to give-up especially when it's everything you ever wanted...

i'm just a girl...
 jealous or anger mean i am still care..
please do care it before you lose it..
but....
who am i to you.... -.-

2010 March 30th

has been make-up model again..

the one who always like a leader wanted me to be her exam model..

which is irene( Ai Ling ✓)...

this is their final make-up exam..

meanwhile they would be leaving kl sooner..

 we all gonna be apart..

macau, sarawak, penang, and kl...

went back to "Stage" sent resume once again..

they seems like wanna hire me..

the other way..

meiling given me a new branded "Smashbox" contact number..

they wanted a make-up artist..

i got bad decision.. in love with "M.A.C" but feel want to working at "Shu uemura"

ahHHHHH~!!

 it drive me crazy..

by the way.. after exam irene brought me to pavilion for dinner and shopping as well..

still got few photos... 

to be continue.....

2010 March 29th Irene's gifts

29th again... another two days march is going to end up...

i wish to hold the time so that won't passed so fast..

i'd sent my resume to few branded in this morning...

which is "stage", "shu uemura" and of cause "m.a.c" again..

i am still in love with m.a.c...

 is trying hard to get job from m.a.c although is not easy..

decided to work for "touch" bridal house...

but doesn't means i gave-up m.a.c..

it's just tried to get some experience from others..

 well.. had lunch with two babes in island bistro..

afterward off to XM met irene...

got few gifts from her... 

thankZzz lovely...

 photo captured by irene...

end

2010 March 26th so so....

i'd been another interview just now..

i might not going to work for that company..
unsuitable...
after interview i off to wangsa walk's miko...
visited the one who always read my blog..XD
sat in front of the mirror while writing my blog..
and also took photos.. (-^~^-)V

straightened my hair.. pretty like it...

after nicky finished work we went "feeling cafe" for drink...
i like their french rose tea.. can't sleep well for few nights.. it would help relaxing my mind...

 photo took by mr.n....

 thanks for spent...
♥
someone set me down on tonight... sigh~ can't sleep well again...

end

2010 March 25th

weird day..

got few date just now..

but eventually all ''ffk''..

what the hell.. so bad..

i've been interview on today..

there is two bridal house which is "touch" and "thom"

pretty well.. still got 2nd interview...

my  sister prefer me to work in "touch"..

but the problem is.. let say i really working in touch..

they will base me to other out let..

pj, jalan ipoh, ipoh, or maybe klang either..

i have to move so far away.. hhmmm~~

trouble trouble...

but tomorrow i going to another interview again..

base on wangsa maju..

there is a studio job..

i am quite interesting..

all the best to me...
by the way.. i've had a nice drink with ahyen at tonight...
thanks for spent...

 before going out i didn't miss out of photos part.. haha..

end

2010 March 24th empty life

march is going to end up..

time passed so fast..

i am so lost here..

still don't know what i actually want..

 i feel want to study..

but don't know what course is suitable..

-fashion design..?

-english language..?

-korean language..?

or else..

i feel want to work..

but don't know what job is suitable..

-mac..?

-bridal house..?

-studio..?

or still free lancer..

mmm.. ( -' _ '-)~

today i accompanied  Kate Kua cut hair at esprit saloon and sungei wang shopping..

Kelly Mah Hui San together with us also..

very long time didn't meet her since she not working in XM..

a great hug from kelly when i saw her..

such a sweet girl...

all the things will be changing after this month.. 

Josephine Ng Kin Man will going back to macau on 4th of april..

Soo Ai Ling also going back to penang after her make-up exam..

hmm... everyone is leaving kl soon..(T.T)

by the way.. i'm so excited that Christine Foo came to kl for amonth..

we can hang out together again..

and i realized that some body are still be there for me..

a very appreciated to them.. 

♥

2010 March 23rd

still moody mode..

a called by sansan caused me went out to pavilian..

we went MNG shopping..

the most worse  thing is when i past by pavilion front door..

i saw the mould of stylo fashion show..

when i saw it i was felt crying..

 Sigh~

 it's reminding me i can't take part of it..

hmm~~

i can't even describe how unhappy i am..

but i won't keep it longer..

 i'll overcome all of it..

 i supposed to look forward...

taymie is right..

maybe better things will come to the next..

however.. i still took photos after shopping..^~^V

end

DOWN

a very bad day to me...

woke-up in the morning a dumb bad news came to me..

feel like crying...

so down...

very upset...

super despair..

i thought i can..

but actually i am not..!

what the hell was that...

heart  breaking...

 sometimes keep-up too long will made my confident drop down...

"XXX" set me down.. always letting me feel want to give-up..

i waited almost a year.. 

but i got nothing here..

hai~ 

no more courage to facing all the things...

the day after tomorrow the stylo show going to start..

but why i can't be there...

 T~~~~~~~T

speechless...

Disney channel shoot

a sleepy day...

woke-up at 4.30am...

felt lazy to waking my body up...

prepared for one hour...

going out to lrt station at 5.30am.....

i can simply fell asleep although standing...

7am arrived bukit jalil...

started working on 7.30am at cyber jaya...

 working for a Disney channel shoot...

the shoot is about student's characteristic in school...

the way they act are just funny...

at the last take they were NG 21 times..

we all felt nervous during they acting 22nd take..

at the end we scream out after the shoot been successed..

such a funny team..

they're very kindly and friendly...

a great experience again...

 thankful to Kate Kua..

i am instead of her to went this shoot..

i found that this photo my face looks so dropsy...( o','o)
i took it early in the morning..

 end

2010 March 18th & 19th reunior just another apart of us

went out at 3am midnight...

how crazy...

we promised to met up after his club party night...

i could wait him although stay up...

just because of his warm hug..

and the smile i dreaming always..

every times i waiting him to come to find me, i would felt excited..

 no matter what... i am belong to him..

but somethings hiding inside of me..

i'm so jealous indeed..

whenever after i viewed those comments..

i'm so unhappy...

whenever you saying good bye to me...

i'm so down...

that actually you are not belong to me...

the more i love you..

the hurts i got are deeper...

we went movie again at sunway pyramid... 

越光宝盒 Just Another Pandoras Box

such a stupid movie.... laugh non-stop..

i love to watch movie with you "BB"..

caused you made every movies nicer...

ë ñ ð

eager to love...

woke-up suddenly by a nightmare...

felt sad... but i can't remember what's the dream about...

promised to meet up at tonight...

i'm desperate.. 

waited just for see your face once again...

i am tough to face everything...

never even show my tears... 

keep telling myself do not miss you always..

and told people that i force myself to don't find u often..

even how badly i miss u is...

actually appearances were deceptive...

 no matter how i protect myself..

your single action caused my heart to broke up...

viewing your fb...

read those comments post by others..

especially that you mention “my future xxxxxxxxxx" with other girl...

i wish i was wrong..

but i understood what it's mean..

eventually i found that i'm just meaningless to you..

tiring to console myself...

i cry silently...

i cry inside of me...

i cry hopelessly...

today i went sungei wang's sasa bought toilette and masks..
and went back to XM bought something needed...
this is my new DOLCE&GABBANA toilette.. love it...

ë ñ ð

with all one's heart

such a happy ji mui day...

she was kept talk about her love story...

he was sat in front of us to listen our love stories...

i was shared whatever on my mind with them...

we were laughing together at "yau yat chun"...

perry skip his hair class for followed us to shopping...

we have been bb plaza, sungei wang and mid valley..

shopping can over come stress...

that's real... since got many troubles with me and my salary out...

sometimes encourage are needed...

is already middle of the month...

i still haven't get my permanent job yet...

but i will be very busy at the end of this month..

the coming stylo fashion show are sooner..

excited again.. would be working together with m.a.c team..

awaiting the days coming..

by the way... took some photos on today...

the new clothes that i bought from mid valley's zara..

i love it so much..

 ghost mode... lol..

ë ñ ð

all's well IF ends well

at last... i told....

i knew it is a bad decision that i'd done....

i may be very hard afterward..

appreciated... apologized...

all the love you gave are just beautiful..

but it isn't belong to me...

a thousand times thanks to you mr.n...

i am not the lucky girl who you spending happiness at the further end of life ..

holding his hand but the other way i lost a friend's hand...

selfishness is very good way to describe love...

you will always choose the one you love the most..

you will always made a best decision for loved...

you will always hurt others to protected HIM...

doesn't care to pay out love or time...

and doesn't care what i have at the end..

there is unreasonable to push you waiting HIM...

even your mind just only the moment you both hugging each other...

that's what love about..

my dear heart.. i met BB again.. please prepare to shatter..

爱一个人很槿...

被爱的人无味...

 想念一个人很苦...

看见那个人时很甜...

等待一个人很酸...

和他吵架很辣...

当你感觉到他的时候会很咸...

2010 March 11st & 12nd nothing else i can say

a memorable nights to me...

even simple.. 

but it's more than enough...

the faces i missing so long...

finally i can felt the warm from you..

his hand..

his hug..

his kiss...

just meaningful to me..

sweet date with you "BB"...

two movies we watched at mid valley...

HOT SUMMER DAYS 全城熱戀

pretty nice... sweet movie...

the other one is..

HERE COMES FORTUNE 财神到

such a funny movie.. he quite like this movie.. cause i said not nice before watched it... 

i don't know how long to wait...

but i am waiting for the next chance to feel you again...

u're just secret in my life...

2010 March 10th

what a good day...

there's few good news came to me...

i'm glad to heard that...

today kate asked us going back "XM" for gathering and shopping..

long time didn't gossip with XM's babes...

the 1st biggest news is our salary out... hahah..

can't wait to go shopping...

and then got a few jobs are coming...

one is m.a.c stylo fashion show...

the other one is miko's hair show...

i like busy life....
besides that... got a big hard trouble with me..
i decided to interview to be m.a.c permanent staff..
but now i need temporary delay it...
well.. after XM few of us went pavilion and sungei wang shopping..
pretty syok...
afterward... i went bbq with friends...
but of cause we doesn't miss out photos time...

end

4th and 5th day M.A.C spring colour forecast

today is saturday....
 what a busy day...
start working at 10am...
work non-stop....
our lunch time supposed to be 11.30pm...
but i work til 4pm only took my lunch..
but busy rather than do nothing...
haha... very happy during working...
because i doing what really love to do...

make-over before event start..
done my things very fast...
so took few pictures for update blog...

we got different grooming on saturday and sunday

he is wayne... from penang... he's very kind of us...

our another guy artist... khen.. we got same hometown...
and we interview together in hq before this event...

at the end of the day i felt like lost my legs...
tired until don't know who am i...
feets no feelings... can't even walk back home..
thanks alot to nicky... luckily got him to sent me home...

sunday...
very excited cause it's final day....
today is family day...
for sure costumers are maximize...

finally event end up..
i got weird feelings..
feel tired..
feel stress..
feel sick...
feel unhappy because can't hit the target..
but...
feel proud....
feel excited....
feel great...
feel happy because i did want i really love...
very appreciated... and thankful to M.A.C to gave me this chance...

these is Spring Colour Forecast products...